Wishlist for my beautiful children..

 We all have dreams of things we want, would like to have, or have happen to us.

I just dream of a better life for my kids.  Better than what I grew up with, Better than what we can give them.

I have a list of things I wish I could do for my kids...

Steven - I wish he had someone for him to love, that loves him back like he deserves. I wish he didn't have stress, anxiety or worry over anything. And I wish he had more time with his beautiful daughter.

Michael - I wish he could find happiness. In a job, relationship, in life. I wish for him to succeed and do what he wants in life, and I wish he loved me. I also wish he realized how very much he is loved.


Rebecca - I don't have to wish for her love or happiness.. she has a life filled with those... (she has some wonderful friends, a great boyfriend, and is happy most of the time)

But I do wish we could buy her a car. She works hard in her schoolwork. She has been the most helpful girl while I work, and really helpful while I have been ill. She is always willing to go that extra mile, do for others and help anybody that needs it.

I also wish we could guarantee her the ability to go to the University of her choice. But neither of these look to be financially feasible...  She will have to wait on a car, and probably go to a local state school because she can get grants.

 She wants to be a surgeon. She has wanted this for over 7 years. She is smart, determined and I want her to be happy...   She wants an out of state school.. has had her heart set on Washington for several years. I just don't see how.


Jessie - I wish her joy. I wish her good friends. I wish her the ability to make good choices, and I wish her happiness through her teen years.

I also wish we had the ability to buy her new clothes. I feel awful that 90% of what she has is hand me downs from Becca, or from freecycle. I wish we could afford to just go shopping and buy her what SHE wants, instead of what she "gets".



I love them all so much. I hate that because of choices we made when we were young, our children have had to suffer. I hate the bad decisions made throughout our adult lives has put us in this place where we are so poor. I wish my husband could look forward to retiring in his 60s. Instead he plans to work until he can't any longer, because we can't afford him not too. And I had hoped to help us get on our feet financially, but all I have done is help us make the week to week living a little easier. We at least know we can pay the bills and put food on the table, but we will never ever get "ahead".


I just really wish my kids had everything they wanted, needed, dreamed of and deserve. I would give anything for that.